they say time heals everything
why is this not the case with me !!! the pain is increasing with time.......day by day.. night by night i'm dying INSIDE.... itz like the termites of time r making me hollow.. i'm hollow inside..... therez nothing..... there was a tym i was the happiest girl on the planet..... but this T I M E.. it finished everything !! i had no worries at all.... i was just a happy go lucky girl..... living in my own world... ohh !! dat world !! how on the earth can i forget that !! that was my world... my own world... i loved it !!
last nyt i sat outside in the dark..... ahh !! that very place i used to sit and talk 2 someone....... that place..... i sat there last night...... memories flashed around me! it was like !!! it was like !! no words !! just looked up at the sky...... the stars reminded me smthng.... i had a perfect life for me.... my world.... but i threw a stone at it myself.... and it shattered..... but i had to !! it would have shattered some tym later !! it was destined to be shattered !!
D E S T I N Y... why does it play with our lives !! why is it so dat we can console others... we can make others so comfortable.... we make them understand that this is life and we have to move on..
BUT.. but when it is like we have to understand this very thing we r not able to....
I m not able to move on with life.... i m just not !! i've tried like anything.... but i can't ... sometimes i think i should do something to make things the same as they were a year and 2 months 16 days ago.... i want to.... but then..... itz like gambling again.... gambling with my happiness at stake again !! no i won't be able 2 bear that whole stock of lies again !! i can't b a plaything at someone's hand again.... i don't want to believe those promises again... those promises which were not meant to be fulfilled.... those promises which were just a bunch of words for someone.... and for me those were my dreams .. my reality..... my life.... my everything..... i won't be able to bear that pain with a smile again !! how does it feel when ur trust is broken.. how does it feel when u r torn apart inside and u have to put that smile on ur face.... u have to paste a smile on ur lips...
itz lyk i'll be single always,... i want 2 be... but next moment a thought passes my mind... itz that ki everyone needs an emotional support in lyf... an emotional support that only one person can give u in this life... and i've lost that one person i think F O R E V E R.....
last nyt i sat outside in the dark..... ahh !! that very place i used to sit and talk 2 someone....... that place..... i sat there last night...... memories flashed around me! it was like !!! it was like !! no words !! just looked up at the sky...... the stars reminded me smthng.... i had a perfect life for me.... my world.... but i threw a stone at it myself.... and it shattered..... but i had to !! it would have shattered some tym later !! it was destined to be shattered !!
D E S T I N Y... why does it play with our lives !! why is it so dat we can console others... we can make others so comfortable.... we make them understand that this is life and we have to move on..
BUT.. but when it is like we have to understand this very thing we r not able to....
I m not able to move on with life.... i m just not !! i've tried like anything.... but i can't ... sometimes i think i should do something to make things the same as they were a year and 2 months 16 days ago.... i want to.... but then..... itz like gambling again.... gambling with my happiness at stake again !! no i won't be able 2 bear that whole stock of lies again !! i can't b a plaything at someone's hand again.... i don't want to believe those promises again... those promises which were not meant to be fulfilled.... those promises which were just a bunch of words for someone.... and for me those were my dreams .. my reality..... my life.... my everything..... i won't be able to bear that pain with a smile again !! how does it feel when ur trust is broken.. how does it feel when u r torn apart inside and u have to put that smile on ur face.... u have to paste a smile on ur lips...
itz lyk i'll be single always,... i want 2 be... but next moment a thought passes my mind... itz that ki everyone needs an emotional support in lyf... an emotional support that only one person can give u in this life... and i've lost that one person i think F O R E V E R.....
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