shaping my dreams into reality

A new phase, a new life, a new beginning ! I don't know why I took so long to post this one, when my life was changed 6 months back.. can never forget 19th February,,,, The day YES!+ entered my life... The day my first AOL teacher Dr. Saurabh Shekhawat entered my life and filled it with it so many mesmerizing experiences, changing it for the BEST ! My first AOL teacher.. He is an exceptionally talented person ! One whose electrifying smile can make you forget your every sorrow.... Whose singing can make u feel united with urself and at the same time can make you dance and dance and love urself.. My heartfelt gratitude to this amazing person ! The 5 keys to happiness can be applied at any stage of life.. Then came 8th March.. YES!+ Advance... I mean back to back they came into my life and changed it completely... Tanu Maa taught me how to live happily from the inside.. Happiness surged out of the core of my heart.. I stopped pasting a fake smile.. Started loving myself ! She ...

aaj ek arse k baad puraani kuchh dhool mein simti yaadon se guzri toh kuchh paya..... kuchh aisa jise padhke woh din aankho ke saamne aa gye.... un beete lamho ko ek baar wapas jee lia aaj kuchh aise ki laga ki woh hissa meri zindagi ka agar wapas meri zindagi mein jud jaye toh kaisa ho,... do i want that part of my life back,..... why is it that i'm not able to connect with anybody else..... no matter how much i want ! no matter main kitti bhee koshish krlun but those feelings just cannot b aroused again for nyone else !! i always find some excuse to avoid those emotions !! always there is an excuse ready !!! why is it so !! and for such a person who has (i think) moved on in life to a place from where i think i'm barely visible !! why so !! why so !! i too have a life which i do want to live !!!! :( dis is what i came across:: -  Dec 25, 2007 sahemi si nigaho me khwab hum jaga denge is dil ka chain bhi hum luta denge tum apni chahat ka izhaar jo karo in palko me h...

Emotionally shattered.. yes I am... just drifting forward in life.. can't find one person in this whole world whoz there 2 listen to me patiently.. so here I m.. not sharing things with people.. coz they r going to cut it out.. like always.. just breathing.. this curious process is keeping me alive..  don't know what i'm going through.. have no idea about it.. not able to trust people.. wanting people 2 understand me.. which they never do.. coz i never make them understand,, my fault.. i know..  but i'm never able 2 understand why people do not listen to me,, listen to me means listen to my feelings... am i that bad at explaining emotions... m i dat bad at giving them words... maybe..  just want to leave it all behind and go to a world where therez nobody... nobody... at least there i won't have 2 pretend anything.. tired of pretending.. in such a bad mood since the last week... it was a looooooooong week....  doing nothing.. just passing away the ti...